Daily Musings

Do I listen to depressing songs? I feel like I love these songs already.

20somethincupcakeaddict:

1. A Fine Frenze - Almost Lover
2. I Don’t Need a Man - Pussycat Dolls
3. I Will Survive - Gloria Gaynor
4. Papercut -Jordan Sparks
5. Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars
6. Survivor - Destiny’s Child
7. So Yesterday - Hilary Duff
8. Not Big - Lily Allen
9. I Can Do Better - Avril Lavigne
10. Better in time - Leona Lewis
11. What Doesn’t Kill You - Kelly Clarkson
12. Satisfy - Vedera

a friend burned a couple of these songs for me 3 years ago. I just add to it. These songs helped me move on. Hopefully they can help you too. 

Hi.
I haven’t posted about my life in a really long time.
So much has changed.
We got together.
I just want to say it a bunch of times.
We got together. We got together. We got together.
Everything is different with him. I know 100% that I’m not just with him because I want a boy. I know that I want to be with him. For the first time since the first time I feel like I genuinely like him. I have _hope_ that things might work out. 
And that’s a whole new topic all by itself. You know what hope is? It’s a feeling. All the sudden my feelings came back so strong and so quickly I don’t even know what to do with myself.
For the first time since I switched to Herndon I’ve been feeling again and I’ve been able to give advice. It’s amazing. My best friend got into college and I was actually able to feel happy for her. Before I would have just gone through the motions. I would have told her that I was “so happy” for her and moved on. Now I actually FEEL so happy for her. 
He makes me want to be better because for some crazy reason I think he actually likes me for me. He doesn’t want anything more which makes me want to be everything he deserves. 
Every second with him is amazing and even though we only get to see each other on weekends, it’s ok because any time I can spend with him is more than I deserve.  

For the first time in a long time… I’m happy :) 

ALSO <3 <3 <3 <3 
just saying ;) 

Soooo I guess I’m an ass hole. 
For Chairman’s we have to present in a group of three and, against my will and better judgement, my brother was picked to be one of the three. 
He never fucking shows up.
We have to present on the 30th (20 days from now) and he doesn’t give a flying fuck if we win or loose. He’s just trying to get out of doing the work that he’s been assigned the entire season.
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meh.
If it was anyone else they’d be gone, but I guess I have to give this dumb ass a second chance cause he’s my brother. 
fuck him.