I haven’t posted about my life in a really long time.
So much has changed.
We got together.
I just want to say it a bunch of times.
We got together. We got together. We got together.
Everything is different with him. I know 100% that I’m not just with him because I want a boy. I know that I want to be with him. For the first time since the first time I feel like I genuinely like him. I have _hope_ that things might work out.
And that’s a whole new topic all by itself. You know what hope is? It’s a feeling. All the sudden my feelings came back so strong and so quickly I don’t even know what to do with myself.
For the first time since I switched to Herndon I’ve been feeling again and I’ve been able to give advice. It’s amazing. My best friend got into college and I was actually able to feel happy for her. Before I would have just gone through the motions. I would have told her that I was “so happy” for her and moved on. Now I actually FEEL so happy for her.
He makes me want to be better because for some crazy reason I think he actually likes me for me. He doesn’t want anything more which makes me want to be everything he deserves.
Every second with him is amazing and even though we only get to see each other on weekends, it’s ok because any time I can spend with him is more than I deserve.
For the first time in a long time… I’m happy :)